My Travels

Should I stay or should i go

Wed, 30 Nov 2011 09:59:46 -0600

Sometimes you just gotta throw your hands up. I feel a little cornered about the reality of my current living situation. I just returned from a wonderful trip to Chicago. I really had a heartfelt homecoming and upon return I also feel part of this community. I really am wrestling with a decision to stay here or move on to a new area. I think it would be challenging and positive to break away again. Wondering if I dare.

Days of 76

Fri, 29 Jul 2011 22:57:25 -0500

Today is a blur. Worked on stuff. I was offered an art studio to work in. I feel like I want to work, but feel pressured to live in a void. Went walking, street lights out (good reason to speak to neighbors). Life is offering up opportunities. Just paint. Just create. All I ever know.

Happening

Mon, 16 May 2011 08:04:43 -0500

In seeking happiness I have missed it. I’m all wet. Nothing brings it or it is fleeting. I realize my choices to get happiness have trapped me in a cocoon. Today is new and fresh painted. I have a decision to grant myself. I choose life and I am aware. Happiness happens I am absorbed.

I should

Mon, 28 Mar 2011 11:40:00 -0500

Sitting in my booth. I am showing my current art in Spearfish. All these years of work have disappeared into the stream of life and I am still here. I am casting in search of a bigger fish all the time, but the water is shallow with other fish competing , baiting.

Held up

Tue, 8 Feb 2011 16:57:51 -0600

I just finished the Billings Market on a successful note. Then the black ice lured my Rav4 into a guard rail. I’m in Sheraton, Wyoming waiting for car parts, repairs, insurance claims to come together. I’m eating pizza for lunch and dinner. I’m just relaxing, memorizing astrology, watching TV in bed. It’s not really a vacation or a sick day. I’m just not going anywhere or pushing an agenda.

lost love

Fri, 10 Dec 2010 09:29:29 -0600

I had my first relationship since moving West and what I discovered is that in many ways he was a continuation of my last relationship. Yes there were improvements and I enjoyed the companionship and intimacy as you can imagine, but then the shit would hit the fan. A lot to think about and I loved it.

Day of the dead

Tue, 2 Nov 2010 01:20:33 -0500

I was inspired to set up an altar for my Dad and other ancestors tonight. I’ve had mixed feelings about my lineage for various reasons and I suppose the feeling has been mutual on their side. I am here in truth because of all They did, good or not so good. I accept myself as living in a way to honor our togetherness through Eternity.

uncertainty

Fri, 29 Oct 2010 00:25:23 -0500

Feeling the loss of companionship and wondering. Reading a book about creative blocks and overcoming stagnation. Those dreaded morning pages and dream recording. Well actually I’m kind of fascinated by my dreams and what they point to. I am a night watchman.

drawing and painting

Sat, 11 Sep 2010 10:05:08 -0500

A friend invited me to a watercolor painting class at Lakota College. I arrived late and there were about 25 people sitting in chairs at their tables doing watercolor painting from their imagination.
It was so comforting being in there, like going back to elementary school. That was the buzz. There wasn’t any pressure and I was welcome (even though I’m not even registered for the class).
Doing the art was like meditating. I felt free as a child. No mind.

home

Sat, 4 Sep 2010 10:18:12 -0500

My trip to Chicago made me feel like I was home and now that I’ve returned to South Dakota I feel that tear inside. I enjoyed all the neighborhoods and diversity and familiarity of my home, so why am I here? I have a show coming up in two weeks in Billings, Montana. I’d love to drive up with my samples and do a trip to Yellowstone and pick up what’s left from my rep at the end. So maybe I’m here exploring new possibilities and ideas and I needed to leave home for an expansion. My dream recall might help. It definitely is tailor made. I wish I could have stayed in Chicago to attend the African Fest. I really wanted a pair of sandals from Kenya with hand bead work on them. My current snake pair is wearing out its sole.